tomorrow = Nairobi

i just got back from an amazing weekend in Charleston, South Carolina with amazing friends.

I rolled back into Denver last night at 1am.
and my head is spinning a little because of the fact that tomorrow i'll be back in Africa.

today is stress day, since i have the inability to transition in a normal manner.

indulge me for a minute - - - - -

taking advantage of all of these amazing opportunities..

sometimes makes me a little tired.

and i just want things like:

• a plant
• a comfortable couch
• my own plates and forks
  
• consistent electricity and internet
• an income where i do more than break even
• to be able to call/see/snuggle with my fam/friends when i want
• a car
• to be in one place for more than a few months
• not to have to worry about catching malaria or bilharzia
• a porch
• and a fireplace
  
• stability
• flushing toilets with toilet paper that isn't dyed green
  
• to be with my fiance for more than a couple of days..
• or at least in the same time zone..
• or even same continent
  
• to not live out of a suitcase
• to throw dinner parties
  
• to be able to take yoga classes
  
• to speak the same first language as the people around me
  
• to not be stared at for looking or dressing differently
• to be able to plan my wedding
• to be able to attend my friend's weddings and birthday parties
• to be able to eat food that i like..
• like fresh leafy veggies..
• and berries..
• and not worry that they will make me super sick
• to not have to think about malaria pills

but then i think about it a little harder

and my heart starts pumping

and i remember that i actually really, really love this

and i pack my bags again.




see you in September.